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Yeah, been a few days. But I'm on track!

Even better, got a pedometer last night and 2 5lb weights. Just went through all the excercises I have for the weights, I could really feel some of them. Worried bout my posture doing them, but I think I did alright.

Lost 2 more pounds, down to 268. With starting the weight training stuff, I know I might not lose numbers as much, if I'm doing it all right. But my clothes, its incredible how loose they are now and how billowy some of them feel on me. I love it, I love how I feel and how I know I'm going to look in the future.

Archive: Still here

Still here.. still working on everything. Wanted ice cream really badly, but couldn't find enough low fat or no sugar to make it worth while. And I know I'd be likely to binge on it. I love ice cream :/

so I found some very low fat pudding, only 90 calories and 10 of it from fat. Better than ice cream for me.

I've discovered I'm just not really getting over my natural aversion to yogurt. We'll see how I do, but it just really creeps me out sometimes.

Overall I'm doing better and better. I got one more book, the food guide. It has actual calories of ALOT of different things, making it easier to see how much everything I eat is. I dont want to count calories, but I want to have an idea how much something is. Very useful especially for hte meat and stuff that you really dont have a clue how much it is. That and fast food. Nothing will scare me off that faster than looking at the actual calories and fat. Some of those burgers are 800-1300 calories.. thats insane!

Archive: Blah

OMG..didn't want to do it today. Just didn't want to excercise at all. Maybe I should turn on the air...its really humid today already (at 8:30 am) but I really don't want to yet. Trying to hold out a bit longer.

Not sure exactly why.. I was bored yesterday, took an extra walk last night. I'm not even that sore right now, just didn't want to do it. Still did it, not the 40 minutes I wanted, but 31 minutes. Stretched out beforehand as well.

Kept promising myself stuff just to get through it.

Not a failure, not even bad, just not sure why after my initial happiness I didnt have any motivation today.

Archive: Oh Yeah!

YEAH!! First ten pound mark. Wearing shorts that were impossible to wear a few weeks ago. Now they fit loose around the waist. Got into ones a size smaller as well.

I'm FEELING better. I am more alert, more awake. I don't want to go crawl into bed at 9pm, at 9pm I'm thinking sheesh, I'm not tired.

I've been working out for 30 minutes every day, and making sure to get myself up and move around alot more often during the day as well. Food intake is probably about a third of what I was eating. And its alot more healthy now.

Feeling damn good about myself.

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So, its been a few days. Five days since I got the scale, two weeks since I got the book. About a week and a half that I've been working on the plan, only a few days into really starting to excercise. I know I'm feeling better. I'm hitting the being really sore part after excercise. Dear god I hurt today. Walks haven't been happening as much as I wanted, but I've been using that silly video game Dance Dance Revolution, three days now about 30-45 minutes at a time. I REALLY hurt. But i'm going to just work through it, even though its very chilly today and i don't want to move much. Already did my work out this morning, will do it again tomorrow no matter what.

Monitoring what I eat, I think my total calories are pretty low right now. Trying to go by the guide. I have problems getting in all the different food groups in a day, but I know I'm doing better than I was, and my portions are very small compared to what they used to be. I'm not so hungry anymore either as I'm adjusting.

Read some message boards today on the homepage of Dr. Phil... lot of inspiration from women that are doing this and have done it. One was the same exact age, same weight, and same goal. Only thing scary was how many people were failing there, or fell off, or restarting over and over. I don't want to do that. This time is going to be the only time. I won't fail. I won't have to restart. I think its realistic to look to reach my goal by this time next year. I don't know what this year will hold, but I'm going to work my ass off towards reaching that goal. Its so important that I'm pushing back paying off some bills to move some funds around to have more available to keep better food in the house. We'll still get stuff paid off next year, but it'll be a few months later most likely. I'll have to see as we go on exactly how to swap around things.

Funny part is, the housework is less now that I've got it so under control, its hard to find something else to do each day. But I'd rather have it this way than the other.

I'm getting very close to losing that first 10 pounds, and thats exciting to say the least. I've been keeping a food diary and work out one as well, just a little pad of paper devoted just to this. Its good to see where I'm going and how I'm doing. Its 180 sheets so half a year and we'll see where I am when its full up.

Other things weighing on my mind, but not really wanting to put them out here. Definitely heavy on the heart today though.