Archive: One kid home
Yeah yeah, so its been a while Heather :p
So, up to 40 pounds, maybe even 41 pounds lost. Walking mornings only right now, bums me out a little bit but I just dont even want to be out there around some of the people. I'm still working out and I even got my home gym. Something I never thought I'd want to own much less actually having one. Of course, a couple parts were missing so I can't really use it completely yet (i can do arm stuff, just not leg stuff) but its here, its built and I've already used it once. The whole reason behind it is this. Pretty soon, the dumbells I have won't be enough anymore. They are 10 pounds a piece. The next ones I can find easily are 20 pounds. Thats a pretty big jump and then where after that?
The gym lets me keep advancing and getting better, it controls the motions and I dont have to worry about dropping the dumbell and hurting something or someone, or losing control of the motion and pulling something badly. And I know my goals and what I want. I want to see the outline of muscles, I want that firm look. I know the work it'll be and I'm wanting to do it. I'm willing to take it slow but I will get there. Its funny the odd responses or lack of responses I'm getting from folks when I mention getting this. Its like it was ok to be walking and the treadmill, but this is out of the realm of ordinary. I look at it this way, I could get a gym membership that I"d likely never use or this. I've already figured out I'm much better at working at home. I don't like the feeling of being stared at, or that awkwardness of having someone watch me when I have no clue what I'm doing. If i can figure it out for myself on my own, I'm pretty happy bout it.
Lets see, what else. Vincent is home safe and sound. Hes been out of it though the last day, not sure if its the let down after the trip or what. He mentioned his father talking about him coming to live there, and from what Vince says it was something Mike DIDN'T want. Not sure how to take that. I've also already seen through some of Mike's stories through Vince. Stuff like this: Vince starts talking about his father's job & boss and how the man 'does nothing' leaves all the time yada yada... This is also the boss that supposedly paid for Vince's trip out there, helped buy some books for school for Vince (i was gonna get them) and let Mike bring him to work every day he was there. Yes.. so this is a horrible man that puts all the work on Mike and does nothing. Another story... So we got Vince a cell phone before he left. While there, Mike gets himself, his wife and his step-son phones. Vince told me how he had to 'show off the ringtone' whatever... even offered to give him 20 bucks so they could text message when he came home (snorts) So, he calls me the day hes leaving and asks at some point if it was ok if he called Mike during the day. I said yes, then started wondering. Well long story short, it seems the phones are 'returned' because they were 'mixed up' with a small business' order or something like that. I'm just thinking "yeah riiiiight" but I'm trying so hard not to say that. Just asked a few questions trying to get Vince to get that into his head.
So I dunno, I dunno what he got outta the trip, what hes really feeling and thinking. He says things are ok, hes happy to be home. I just dunno right now what to make of it.
New kitty updates: Nari is doing wonderful. We've had her for a week now, shes defintely growing already. The box under my desk is no longer her home, she sleeps in front of it on a towel. At night we lock her into the computer room with her own litter box, food & water. Just not ready for her to run the house yet. I figure another week or two and she will be fine. Most of the time she makes it to the box, but we usually catch her the rest of the time and just put her in and she goes. Haven't found an accident in a few days which is awesome. I'm so happy we adopted her. She has really taken to me, just gazes up at me with those pretty eyes (still blue) and I melt. Creeper is getting better with her, not hissing and growling and only smacking her now and then. Kriye comes into the room where she is at least, and its funny to watch her and Creeper making more friendly now to each other.
Kriye is pretty much Katie's cat, Creeper is Vince & Brian's and so this one will hopefully stay with me. She also seems to adore Megan. That works out pretty good for me. I have no intention of any more pets any time soon. Three cats, three kids... seems about right eh?
Personal stuff.. Missing a very dear person more than I like. His work keeps him so busy that I'm lucky to get a hello, a really good day I get a couple lines of text and thats about it. Leaves a pretty big hole with nothing left to fill it in. Other friends have come back into the picture that I haven't spoken to in a long time, feels really nice. Life is adjusting, I'm spending less and less time online gaming and very comfortable with myself and my schedule.
I want to take this next full year, from now till the end of next summer... finish getting myself into shape, get my finances in order and then start looking into schooling. We also have hopes of looking for a house probably not next summer, but the one after that. Of course, that summer Vince will be going away to college. There is also the fact that Brian only has a few more years in the Navy, 2010, and I dont know if I want to actually buy a house right before he retires. No idea where we will go when that happens, but we have alot of desire to stay here and let the kids all finish school. Katie graduates 2010, so it'd just be Megan's last 3 years. I still dream and long to return to Ohio to be around my family, just not sure if its even a feasible goal. I don't know where my kids will be heading too, if they move away from here it'd be more likely I'd want to go elsewhere. I won't ever feel like this is home, home is where my family is.
So, up to 40 pounds, maybe even 41 pounds lost. Walking mornings only right now, bums me out a little bit but I just dont even want to be out there around some of the people. I'm still working out and I even got my home gym. Something I never thought I'd want to own much less actually having one. Of course, a couple parts were missing so I can't really use it completely yet (i can do arm stuff, just not leg stuff) but its here, its built and I've already used it once. The whole reason behind it is this. Pretty soon, the dumbells I have won't be enough anymore. They are 10 pounds a piece. The next ones I can find easily are 20 pounds. Thats a pretty big jump and then where after that?
The gym lets me keep advancing and getting better, it controls the motions and I dont have to worry about dropping the dumbell and hurting something or someone, or losing control of the motion and pulling something badly. And I know my goals and what I want. I want to see the outline of muscles, I want that firm look. I know the work it'll be and I'm wanting to do it. I'm willing to take it slow but I will get there. Its funny the odd responses or lack of responses I'm getting from folks when I mention getting this. Its like it was ok to be walking and the treadmill, but this is out of the realm of ordinary. I look at it this way, I could get a gym membership that I"d likely never use or this. I've already figured out I'm much better at working at home. I don't like the feeling of being stared at, or that awkwardness of having someone watch me when I have no clue what I'm doing. If i can figure it out for myself on my own, I'm pretty happy bout it.
Lets see, what else. Vincent is home safe and sound. Hes been out of it though the last day, not sure if its the let down after the trip or what. He mentioned his father talking about him coming to live there, and from what Vince says it was something Mike DIDN'T want. Not sure how to take that. I've also already seen through some of Mike's stories through Vince. Stuff like this: Vince starts talking about his father's job & boss and how the man 'does nothing' leaves all the time yada yada... This is also the boss that supposedly paid for Vince's trip out there, helped buy some books for school for Vince (i was gonna get them) and let Mike bring him to work every day he was there. Yes.. so this is a horrible man that puts all the work on Mike and does nothing. Another story... So we got Vince a cell phone before he left. While there, Mike gets himself, his wife and his step-son phones. Vince told me how he had to 'show off the ringtone' whatever... even offered to give him 20 bucks so they could text message when he came home (snorts) So, he calls me the day hes leaving and asks at some point if it was ok if he called Mike during the day. I said yes, then started wondering. Well long story short, it seems the phones are 'returned' because they were 'mixed up' with a small business' order or something like that. I'm just thinking "yeah riiiiight" but I'm trying so hard not to say that. Just asked a few questions trying to get Vince to get that into his head.
So I dunno, I dunno what he got outta the trip, what hes really feeling and thinking. He says things are ok, hes happy to be home. I just dunno right now what to make of it.
New kitty updates: Nari is doing wonderful. We've had her for a week now, shes defintely growing already. The box under my desk is no longer her home, she sleeps in front of it on a towel. At night we lock her into the computer room with her own litter box, food & water. Just not ready for her to run the house yet. I figure another week or two and she will be fine. Most of the time she makes it to the box, but we usually catch her the rest of the time and just put her in and she goes. Haven't found an accident in a few days which is awesome. I'm so happy we adopted her. She has really taken to me, just gazes up at me with those pretty eyes (still blue) and I melt. Creeper is getting better with her, not hissing and growling and only smacking her now and then. Kriye comes into the room where she is at least, and its funny to watch her and Creeper making more friendly now to each other.
Kriye is pretty much Katie's cat, Creeper is Vince & Brian's and so this one will hopefully stay with me. She also seems to adore Megan. That works out pretty good for me. I have no intention of any more pets any time soon. Three cats, three kids... seems about right eh?
Personal stuff.. Missing a very dear person more than I like. His work keeps him so busy that I'm lucky to get a hello, a really good day I get a couple lines of text and thats about it. Leaves a pretty big hole with nothing left to fill it in. Other friends have come back into the picture that I haven't spoken to in a long time, feels really nice. Life is adjusting, I'm spending less and less time online gaming and very comfortable with myself and my schedule.
I want to take this next full year, from now till the end of next summer... finish getting myself into shape, get my finances in order and then start looking into schooling. We also have hopes of looking for a house probably not next summer, but the one after that. Of course, that summer Vince will be going away to college. There is also the fact that Brian only has a few more years in the Navy, 2010, and I dont know if I want to actually buy a house right before he retires. No idea where we will go when that happens, but we have alot of desire to stay here and let the kids all finish school. Katie graduates 2010, so it'd just be Megan's last 3 years. I still dream and long to return to Ohio to be around my family, just not sure if its even a feasible goal. I don't know where my kids will be heading too, if they move away from here it'd be more likely I'd want to go elsewhere. I won't ever feel like this is home, home is where my family is.
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