Back to Normal?
Is it? I've been trying. Yesterday was the first real 'normal' day I've had since the 5th. Cleaned house, took care of bills, didn't manage to exercise but I did alot of up and down and moving all day.
Kids in school, doing well. Found out some good news, adoption seems to be free at the base, so that will be a wonderful thing. I want to start the process even though Kat isn't 14 yet. I think we have a chance with his serious lack of communication. Not sure if Vincent will be or not, but its his choice. I don't want to push, and I admittedly did a little. I'll back off now and just it all stir around in his head for a while.
Megan's room is CLEAN finally, and she pulled a 'move' yesterday and changed it all around while we were downstairs. Silly child. Shes growing and changing big time right now, has her own style and self awareness thats peeking out. Its really wonderful to see.
Brian and I.. things are better, hes communicating a bit more or at least faking it good enough. I don't feel quite so alone in everything and even got compliments on how I have been handling things. Thats new. Its never been that its horrible, its just been lonely from time to time and I don't know how to pull him back into our lives. I've gotten away from my 'gaming', I can honestly take or leave it at this point. Its mostly a time killer for the middle of my day instead of watching stupid soap operas. Of course, I still enjoy the game, and my time with my friends, but its not what drives me anymore.
Other news, if you noticed the ticker at the top of the page, my weight went from 213 to 207 since I got home. I'm surely not going to complain, but I did step on and off the scale a few times to check. It coulda been a low fluctuation, but I'll take the number. I'm still actually 2 pounds off for the whole month, the first month I have a chance at not hitting my goal. I DO think its excused and I'll be just fine if I dont make it. I still made forward progress and I'm not going to complain. Going to get myself back on the treadmill today, have a feeling its gonna hurt after 2 weeks of nothing.
Kids in school, doing well. Found out some good news, adoption seems to be free at the base, so that will be a wonderful thing. I want to start the process even though Kat isn't 14 yet. I think we have a chance with his serious lack of communication. Not sure if Vincent will be or not, but its his choice. I don't want to push, and I admittedly did a little. I'll back off now and just it all stir around in his head for a while.
Megan's room is CLEAN finally, and she pulled a 'move' yesterday and changed it all around while we were downstairs. Silly child. Shes growing and changing big time right now, has her own style and self awareness thats peeking out. Its really wonderful to see.
Brian and I.. things are better, hes communicating a bit more or at least faking it good enough. I don't feel quite so alone in everything and even got compliments on how I have been handling things. Thats new. Its never been that its horrible, its just been lonely from time to time and I don't know how to pull him back into our lives. I've gotten away from my 'gaming', I can honestly take or leave it at this point. Its mostly a time killer for the middle of my day instead of watching stupid soap operas. Of course, I still enjoy the game, and my time with my friends, but its not what drives me anymore.
Other news, if you noticed the ticker at the top of the page, my weight went from 213 to 207 since I got home. I'm surely not going to complain, but I did step on and off the scale a few times to check. It coulda been a low fluctuation, but I'll take the number. I'm still actually 2 pounds off for the whole month, the first month I have a chance at not hitting my goal. I DO think its excused and I'll be just fine if I dont make it. I still made forward progress and I'm not going to complain. Going to get myself back on the treadmill today, have a feeling its gonna hurt after 2 weeks of nothing.
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