Working on it
Well been working hard this last week on getting rid of what I regained over the holiday. Blah on that. Tell you what, I'm more and more realizing that the momentary pleasure of the taste just doesn't equal the work it takes to get rid of it later. Hopefully by the end of next week I'll start losing again old stuff.
Its all a learning process still, learning what I can eat, what I can't. Learning portions and control and learning what I can deal with the rest of my life. I know if I pushed it hard I could lose this alot faster. I could work out hours a day and count every bite that goes into my mouth. But if I did that, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I'd never manage to keep up with it. Watching the Biggest Loser special last week, one family did just that. They went from 230-260 range down to 150-180 range over 5 months. Looked amazing when they won 50k. On the next day morning show, they caught up with them 'now' and they had started gaining it all back, because they had just 'stopped' everything.
I don't want to stop everything at some point cause its too much for me. I want to continue this the rest of my life. So easier work outs, something I can manage and convince myself is worth while daily over something that kills me and makes me not want to do it makes a lot more sense.
All these small steps I'm taking are making the difference. Stopped soda 2.5 years ago, started walking/moving 8 months ago plus everything else. But its all felt like small comfortable manageable steps. Nothing has felt like omg, I just can't do this.
I keep thinking Dad would be terribly proud of me right now. I had my size 14 outfit on yesterday and it just feels so good knowing that I've come that far. From what I have read/heard, supposedly 14's are the average size now a days for the American woman. That sorta blows me away. I've always thought of myself as heavier than most people, now, I am right in the middle of most people. Hehe, now to head into that skinnier than most people zone!
Had a dinner last night with Robin & John, our two dear friends in the area. She has done so many wonderful things just being there for us, I wanted to give her something small back. I used my stained glass paints and made up a pretty candleholder sorta vase with a yin-yang symbol, a cherry blossom branch & some letters that mean friendship. She loved it. Most of her house is done in oriental style and I wanted something that would just fit right in. Feels good to do things for her. Vince made an incredible dinner, he really outdid himself. How he constantly gets chicken cooked without drying it out or undercooking it, I have no idea.
Megan will be marching in the inagural day parade this upcoming Saturday. And Kat was all girly over the weekend with her friend, doing makeup, dressing up Megan and doing their nails. They also swapped clothes for the weekend.. Silly things teenage girls are.
I absolutely adore my children.
Its all a learning process still, learning what I can eat, what I can't. Learning portions and control and learning what I can deal with the rest of my life. I know if I pushed it hard I could lose this alot faster. I could work out hours a day and count every bite that goes into my mouth. But if I did that, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I'd never manage to keep up with it. Watching the Biggest Loser special last week, one family did just that. They went from 230-260 range down to 150-180 range over 5 months. Looked amazing when they won 50k. On the next day morning show, they caught up with them 'now' and they had started gaining it all back, because they had just 'stopped' everything.
I don't want to stop everything at some point cause its too much for me. I want to continue this the rest of my life. So easier work outs, something I can manage and convince myself is worth while daily over something that kills me and makes me not want to do it makes a lot more sense.
All these small steps I'm taking are making the difference. Stopped soda 2.5 years ago, started walking/moving 8 months ago plus everything else. But its all felt like small comfortable manageable steps. Nothing has felt like omg, I just can't do this.
I keep thinking Dad would be terribly proud of me right now. I had my size 14 outfit on yesterday and it just feels so good knowing that I've come that far. From what I have read/heard, supposedly 14's are the average size now a days for the American woman. That sorta blows me away. I've always thought of myself as heavier than most people, now, I am right in the middle of most people. Hehe, now to head into that skinnier than most people zone!
Had a dinner last night with Robin & John, our two dear friends in the area. She has done so many wonderful things just being there for us, I wanted to give her something small back. I used my stained glass paints and made up a pretty candleholder sorta vase with a yin-yang symbol, a cherry blossom branch & some letters that mean friendship. She loved it. Most of her house is done in oriental style and I wanted something that would just fit right in. Feels good to do things for her. Vince made an incredible dinner, he really outdid himself. How he constantly gets chicken cooked without drying it out or undercooking it, I have no idea.
Megan will be marching in the inagural day parade this upcoming Saturday. And Kat was all girly over the weekend with her friend, doing makeup, dressing up Megan and doing their nails. They also swapped clothes for the weekend.. Silly things teenage girls are.
I absolutely adore my children.
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