Communication
Why is it so hard for some people to communicate? Sometimes it feels easier to tell complete strangers every detail of your life instead of the friends and family that supposedly love you and care for you the most. How come the truth becomes painful and your mistakes and transgressions however small seem insurmountable when it comes to telling those around you daily.
Do we feel like we have to be perfect? Do we feel like they perhaps should just figure it all out and know without even being told? Hell I don't even quite know what I am saying either, except that I have to say it somewhere and the words just have to come before I burst.
Why is it that we can let ourselves be ignored by those we love the most, letting the claims of other things in their real lives take them away, knowing that yes, they do love us but its ok. Yes, I want your attention, but its ok because I understand that something else pulls you away right now. I'll be here when you are done. It hurts, but its ok cause I know you love me.
Why are we kinder to strangers than to the people we love the most? More considerate, more patient, more honest. Its just so hard to ask for attention, when you want them to just realize that you are feeling lonely and abandoned.
Do we feel like we have to be perfect? Do we feel like they perhaps should just figure it all out and know without even being told? Hell I don't even quite know what I am saying either, except that I have to say it somewhere and the words just have to come before I burst.
Why is it that we can let ourselves be ignored by those we love the most, letting the claims of other things in their real lives take them away, knowing that yes, they do love us but its ok. Yes, I want your attention, but its ok because I understand that something else pulls you away right now. I'll be here when you are done. It hurts, but its ok cause I know you love me.
Why are we kinder to strangers than to the people we love the most? More considerate, more patient, more honest. Its just so hard to ask for attention, when you want them to just realize that you are feeling lonely and abandoned.
posted by Tammy at
5:30 PM
1 Comments:
I hear you, and thanks for the advice. A great big part of me is tired of it, and knows it'll get better for a time then go to hell again. Why bother? I've got so much else going on in my life right now, trying to sort myself out and find myself that I don't have that energy either.
And truthfully, I've closed some doors myself and forgot where I put the key.
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Tammy, at 10:19 AM
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